Diaries of an Empath

Narcissistic mothers get promoted to Mimi’s
Cause that’s the only person they truly care about.
It’s always about how they are affected
Even when they have no part in the battle
Just hope nothing bad happens to you
They will bask in and milk the attention.
Might even get butt hurt if you don’t die
Because they want all the love and affection.

Imagine you were in a car accident
survived a traumatic brain injury
woke up to foreign love and support
But as you healed and recovered
The love and support ceased.

They liked me best when I had no voice
Never fans of my outspoken opinions
Silenced by the devil’s first actual attempt at my life.
Forced to keep thoughts to myself
No matter if I disagreed
They relished in their sense of control
A free pixie spirit I used to be
Nothing more than a caged bird.

As the voice returned the love died
And went back to being bitter
Once again I put my eyes back on the prize
And started planning my next big endeavor.
But the damage was too much For me, and left parts of my brain disabled
More challenged than I already was,
Since I was born severely neurodivergent

I got my empath brain from my dad
Thanks to recessive genetics
A trifecta of empaths in my genes
I got my blue eyes from my paternal grandmom.
A gentle soul
Kind and nurturing
Compassionate and caring
They way a mother was supposed to be
Not a thing like my birth mom.
My narcissistic gene came from her,
She was her Father’s daughter
My narcissism is my need for love
Cause I base everything on emotion.
My logical brain
Doesn’t use leftist learned man splaining
I am a unicorn, all right brained
My logic is emotional
I choose what’s right over what’s good
Cause they aren’t always interchangeable.

Not saying I’m perfect, I have many faults
Because I am merely human.
I lost my way, made a lot of mistakes,
But have returned like a prodigal daughter
My God doesn’t want feared or worshipped.
My God just wants to be loved and adored
An open minded and accepting celestial
Hoping for more peace in this world.