I’m trying to forgive, but I still hold a grudge over my momster never being supportive. Only showing love when it benefits her, and even then it’s forced affection. Everything is always on her time. Both of my parents are “my way or the highway” type of people. And I’m the rainbow sheep of the family. I’d say black sheep, but that has such a dark and negative connotation, and baby my aura is every color on the spectrum! Which combined make pure white. I’m a wise and colorful person just like we are all designed to be, feeling every bit of emotion on the spectrum. But emotions and intelligence are frowned upon in my family’s establishment, leaving me looking and feeling like an odd zebra.

So yeah, I’m still holding a grudge and struggling to break these last trauma bonds because of it. I’ve tried to soften the devil and make things right between us, but she will have no part of it. So I’m letting my aunt Karma take the reigns and I’m just along for the ride.